BLEEDING EMO MONKEYS

self worth

i feel like crap. and to at least one person reading this that’ll probably make them happy, so have fun. its shitty having no self worth from doing anything, and its sad that i lose self worth if im not employed, in school, or actively doing something productive because i normally hate doing the productive thing when im actually there. and i am in school, just not in the summer. it shitty when it takes 30-60 min to fill out online applications cause they all want you do a survey now that asks 100 questions that i some how must fail, but it always tells me im not qualified for a position at mcdonalds based on the results. cool, im unfit for a job that some 40 year old still living his mom does. its shitty when you look for a job and every place tells you you arent good enough for their shitty little fast food job, when im probably more qualified then the managers they have there. its shitty when youre a drain on your parents and for nothing right now, to support nothing. its shitty when your phone is hardly working and you dont have money at all for a new one. its shitty when your mom tells you shes drowning and really really really needs me to find a job, yet i cant. its shitty when you dont live with anyone and dont wanna go outside because you have such little self worth right now that if anyone tried to talk to you youd be timid or just a jackass for being in such a shitty place mentally.